the district sleeps alone tonight.

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 15:59:01 GMT

what happened today was really awesome. it put a smile on my face, brightened up my day, released my stress, and gladdened by heart. although it was a small gesture, an act of being friendly, it was your smile and your presence that made it all the more worthwhile.

yes, you're right lah (:
batman didn't die.

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 15:03:06 GMT

ego. i believe my level of ego is determined by the people around me, and their levels of ego. how did i come to such a conclusion you may ask? simple watson, through the many shortcomings and personal experiences faced through this year and the past.

ego, it drives people away, they say. that holds true, as evident since i've not been able to score well, and me obviously taking the blame upon myself and my ego. but hey, take a look around and you'll understand why.

you in your oh-so-highly belief that you're a walking legend, a living goddess. but my dear, such ego will get you nowhere, especially in such a circumstance. and don't you go about denying the issue, its elementary, my dear watson. well whats the antidote to this? obviously, fight fire with fire, lah. you're failure to apologize, to recognise the misdeeds that you did, so much ego flowing out of you. but then again, who gives a shit about you anymore, who cares? well obviously i don't. but please don't misinterpret this post as 'thinking about you enough to bother about you'. because i don't, and i never will. ego? well you started it first, im just fighting fire with fire, my dear.

then again, the only reason for this post is for me to say how disgusted i am at you (i dont care if you read my blog or not cos who gives a fuck).

well that aside, you cannot deny the ego that has been brewing up in me like grain to the fermentor. so i've not been able to score well but hey, i've got my true friends and im more than happy. oh well, as quoting from the greatest detective of all time, "All my instincts tell me that she in in London, but as we have no possible means of telling where, we can only take the obvious steps, eat our dinner, and possess our souls in patience."

have a good day folks!

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 05:51:40 GMT

i woke up depressed. i woke up thinking of you and the fact that i need a girlfriend like you.

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 10:41:09 GMT

welcome back grace! :D

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 11:38:05 GMT

Arwen: Renech i lu i erui govannem? (do you remember when we first met?)
Aragorn: Nauthannem i ned ol renainnen. (i thought i strayed into a dream.)
Arwen: Gwennin in enninath... (long years have passed...) U-'arnech in naeth i si celich. (you did not have the cares you carry now.) Renich i beth i pennen? (do you remember what i told you?)
Aragorn:You said you'd bind yourself to me, forsaking the immortal life of your people.
Arwen:And to that i hold. I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone. I choose a mortal life.
Aragorn:You cannot give me this!
Arwen: It is mine to give to whom i will... like my heart.

FWAH! OMG NICE!

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 17:27:20 GMT

remember to smile. remember to breathe. and everything will be okay. why are you so irresistible?

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 16:51:22 GMT

she is a goddess. so divine, her being is unfathomable, uncontrollable, and oh-so-very undeniable. her eyes made of the finest eternal celestial gems that sparkle and radiate like the moons of saturn, like the goddess athena. they burn of passion, of desire, of lust, and it did not end there. her hair as if made of the finest silk, bourne from the oldest silkworm, wovern together by the softest hands, her hands. oh where oh where did God find such beauty! and how on earth did he manage to fit so much magnificence into her perfectly carved figure? to wonder, i just need to meet her creator.

she could and she would last longer than me. this dream, merely a vision, an illusion, but i'd give the world for it to materialize. her luscious lips, her breath down my neck, a treat for the senses. oh she will draw the hallelujah from my lips, that i believe. the fantasy no more a fallacy, it drives me to live as if the source of my substinenece. more than that, it keeps me coming back for more. the epitome of all guys' desires, oh every guy wants a girl like that. i want one too, i want her.

so divine.

Wed, 21 May 2008 12:24:06 GMT

today has been the most fucking tiring day ever even though all i did was study in the library from 9 to 6 and then dinner. i can't feel my legs, i can't feel my brains. i need a smoke.

Tue, 20 May 2008 16:41:30 GMT

use me holly, come on and use me.

Sat, 17 May 2008 16:01:39 GMT

seriously, my perception of you has changed. im so fucking disappointed/pissed/annoyed at you and your single-minded, individualistic opinions. you start saying your opinions about how we're not bonded. but friend, your words are so transparent and i read right through them straight to your heart, the organ that is not all muscle but deep within, a spirit of conscience and feeling. and trust me please, you're so easy to read, like a story book meant for kids, like seaseme street. so it's not your fault? all blame is on us? is that how you really feel? give me a break and look at yourself first.

as if we never tried, open your double-door, glue-shut eyes and see and notice: we're the ones always there, always wanting to BE there. you're the one always out there with somebody(s) else. but HEY! we never ever blamed you, we never ever blamed anyone, because, everyone has the right to be with the person/people they want to be with. yet, we'll always be there for you if you wanted to come join us. so now what? we're to blame because we're not bonded even though we always tried, and YOU, you always the one not being there. wow, this is really 'the best deceptions', as if dashboard confessionals wrote the song specially for you. and i believe they spewed all their emotions into it from that single organ that housed every feeling in it.

and what now? i like to shine like the stars? give me a break, you never ever wanted to play even if i went on my knees and begged you to.
but trust me, im never ever gonna do that, disgusting.

hello, im naturally a competitive person, i like to give it my best when it comes to doing something. why waste your little effort when you're not gonna give it your best, and just fool around? might as well not even TRY that single bit, don't waste your time. please, its better to put all the sweat, blood and toil to good use out there on the playing fields. thats my logic, i like to give it my best shot, and hence im a competitive person. furthermore, we play to enjoy and have fun. wheres the fun in fooling around and not giving it your best shot, and letting the opposition trample over you? might as well not play and just let them own you hands down. wheres the fun in that? im not saying that its a dire situation and we MUST win. what im saying is, how are you ever gonna have fun if you don't give it your best shot and enjoy it? even if it does not work out, at least we know we TRIED. definitely, we cannot win everything, but it definitely beats fooling around. like that play for fuck?! so just because of that i like to SHINE?!

and i like to lead?! wow, just shows you really don't know me. i'm fine with responsibilities, but even more, i love not being given authority over something, because i just simply prefer to lay back and not be held full account over something. don't get me wrong, if im given a duty, i'll put my heart and soul into it and carry it out dutifully. but did anybody volunteer to write the script? oh yes yes, you guys gave all your ideas and all your inputs, thanks for them. but did anybody volunteer to write the FUCKING script? NO. so i decided to take it up because i want us to do well. but then you come in and say that im doing everything and im leading the whole thing. yes thats true. but ask yourself, who wrote the fucking script because nobody wanted to? expect us all to follow your subsequent inputs on improvement? to a limited extent, yes, thats true, as long as it hails improvements in its way. yes friend, i actually bothered to listen to you, and not only you, allowed everybody to give their numerous feedback and opinions on improvement. and yes, i implemented some of them. so am i turning a deaf ear on you now?! did i really not give you a say? did i really lead EVERYTHING?

this whole issue just shows how you're so distant and disconnected from us. you don't understand how we roll. obviously, coming from your single-minded, individualistic opinions.

wake up lah, friend(?)

Wed, 14 May 2008 17:05:57 GMT

closed lipped,
another goodnight kiss,
is robbed of all its passion
your grip,
another time is slack,
it leaves me feeling empty.

please tell me you're just feeling tired,
cause if its more than that i feel that i might break.
out of touch, out of time
please send me anything but signals that are mixed,
because i can't read your rolling eyes.
out of touch, are we out of time?

Tue, 13 May 2008 15:06:34 GMT

what i'd do just to take you in you know i'll take you somewhere deep within you know i'll die for you i'll die for you oh yeah close my eyes but i can't skip this feeling your voice is so gentle and appealing this fire takes me higher a bit of desire that i just can't deny woohh oh won't ya come a little bit closer and be mine heavenly oh you draw my puckered lips so slowly oh yeah you smother me within woahh woahh this fire takes me higher a bit of desire that i just can't deny woohh ohh won't ya come a little bit closer say you'll be mine for all time we're gonna take it slower lets make it longer i tried to listen yeah i tried to reason but this feeling just won't go away you draw me in so close you burn my skin but still i turn to you all night and day turn my back i can't stop resisting can't deny this love everlasting light this love divine constellation mind my heart this twisted attraction taste your sweet release on my fingers rest my soul but leave me so breathless god forgive but please don't deny this so come on shine on shine all your love upon us.

Mon, 05 May 2008 12:50:28 GMT

for that moment, i really wished it was directed at me. from that moment on, i wished forever. please let it be forever. please, im really dying here.

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 13:42:01 GMT

they say you can read a person through their eyes. im not skeptical. when i saw you that day as you graced down the aisle, you beamed in your angelic white gown and you radiated the aura of a goddess. you were gliding down the aisle, and walking condemned, only for mortals. as you met him, the touch, the brush, it flooded me with such great feelings of depression. it brought back memories, memories which seemed to have been buried a long time ago in the graveyards of my heart. but no, it was always there, unconsciously, like a dagger through the heart of st. angeles, like a stake through count dracula.

at the reception, i stared deep into your eyes, wondering why you sent that beautiful invitation to such a lowdown, God-forsaken person like me. a beautiful invitation, a beautiful wedding, a beautiful lie.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 15:22:12 GMT

To Ben: Wish You Were Here.

good good memories!
The Ponyz!
The Ponyz + The Class!
V'day! but without ben damnn saddd :'(

i'll treasure these forever.

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 06:25:19 GMT

im as flexible as plywood, i'll bend and not break. and even if break, i'll take it with a smile. what character! and at the same time reminiscing my younger, more energetic and wilder skateboarding days.

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 06:18:36 GMT

"trust me" he said, "just jump". immediately my knees went weak. jump? a good choice, considering the situation, but yet i felt so reluctant to do so. why was i even considering it in the first place? i knew better than that not to have even put that thought into my thick skull. now it'd be too late to get it out, it could not escape the thick walls of calcium surrounding it even if it tired gnawing and clawing at it like a distressed, rabid bear.

i knew it would undermine my sincerity, and more than that, highlight my desperateness in this situation. to jump would seem as if to cheat, to lie and to betray. but deep down i knew it would be an honest decision on my part. nonetheless, no matter how hard you try, you cannot stop the flow of opinions that others have of you and what you are going through. they would flow like the river from babylon which carried moses when he was a baby; so gentle and calming but yet, the eventual outcome made brought about such a great and significant positive change for the Israelis.

you were always right my friend.

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 15:01:30 GMT

and so she said hello. a pure gentle girl who radiated in her white dress. she knew me from before but i could not recognize her anymore. caught in the awkward silence, a reluctant 'hey' resonated from my lips. it sounded terrible, full of fear and anxiety, but i didn't care; i gave up hope a long time ago.

her eyes still glimmered and radiated like ages ago, brighter than the stars. was i in heaven? not quite, NO.

i wasn't as much a mess as before. but seeing her brought back memories. it was like looking down a fisheye lens, the theory of the 4th cosine rule in play creating a vignetting effect; i saw past everything else that happened in between, which was dark and blur, focusing only on her, right smack in the center. at the same time, i recalled a few dreams i had, and one or two which friends had for me.

what is this hope that i held on to? hope, a double-edged sword. it drives you to achieve your goal, believing in yourself that you're capable to reach such great heights. but at the same time it will destroy you if you fail to succeed in reaching your goals, crushing you, hitting you hard like the pavement floor you fell down upon ages ago and broke your two front teeth; but this time, harder, harder than ever before. don't leave me high, don't leave me dry; i guess the prohets of the modern age were right. they drew wisdom from the spectrum of light emitting from the eternal beings above, bringing prophercies of how you should live life and not expect too much out of it. after all, loving is giving and not expecting anything in return.

and then it comes to love. love? what were the poets thinking? they were merely dreamers, giving us hope of a better future, a better life, a life of love, with somebody to care for, somebody to embrace. they wanted to change the world. but don't be naive, changing the world is too big a task for us my dear. as cynical as it sounds, it will never ever happen. what was john lenon thinking when he wrote 'imagine'? a world free from slavery, crime, hate, and a life full of peace and love? yes, dearest john lennon, i may say, 'you are a dreamer'. if we want to change the world, it has to begin with US, we have to change ourselves first before our efforts will be able to impact the community around us. but it in itself is such a difficult task! oh brother!

im not saying that love is absent in our world of today. it is present, just look around you. thank you Jesus for the love that you've showered upon us all, dying for us to save us, all because you love us. we need it, we need love.

but dearest friend, you've not reflected it at all. pity the fact that we both believe in Him. wow what an irony.

this is a must watch must watch must watch.

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 14:19:19 GMT

And I heard a voice through the discord
A deluge of passersby
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by

And I swear I'll know your face in the crowd
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger to be (stronger)
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another

Here's my kiss to betray (kiss to betray)
Desperate to brush the lips of grace (Brush the lips of grace)
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I lied?

And oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me
And oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger to be (stronger)
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger to be (stronger)
Hey unloving
I will love you
I will love you
I will love you

And Jesus I'm ready to come home
I'm ready to come
Jesus I'm ready to come home (home,home)
Hey Unfaithful
Hey Ungraceful
Hey unloving
I will love you

Hey unloving
I will love you

this is a must watch.

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 15:30:05 GMT

UNDEROATH!
ohh goodness i remember listening to them everyday before. miss listening to them so much!

<3 underoath! jesus FTW!

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 16:01:54 GMT

i want to know what its like to play in a rock band.
and travel around the world playing at big shows.
i want the 'let's hit the road' experience.
just to feel what its like.
SO COOOOL! :D

this is so random, but, i really LOVE MUSIC! :D

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 12:13:08 GMT

"you have your own set of values by which you judge yourself and another set for judging others." - Ms. Narindar.

hit me like a flying arrow in the dark.

HOLYYYYY SHEEETTTTTTT!
HAYLEY WILLIAMS SO HOTZ! :O

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 14:05:56 GMT

lazy lazy lazy.
besides homework, i've been thinking about all the lines that my classmates came up with. and i can't help but stop and laugh, they're really amusing. one of them is: "damn energy i get when i see her." (okay sorry inside joke) but no prizes for guessing what other lines we came up with with just that initial sentence. HAHAHA!

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 09:26:58 GMT

Australia '07

im so bored.

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 14:53:00 GMT

"when lightning strikes the ones you love."

HAHAHAHAHAHA! XD
cute with a capital K! (: